Long-term Thoughts of Suicide

By PeggySue Wells


Have you struggled with long-term thoughts of suicide?

Have you struggled with long-term thoughts of suicide?

Having thoughts of suicide can be a temporary condition triggered by crisis in our lives. But for others, this dark night of the soul is a continuous condition, year after year.

Here is how one person described what it’s like to have long-term thoughts of suicide and depression:

Many more people are silently suffering and depressed than ever before. We hear stories about great things coming around for everyone else but nothing is happening for us. We hear about weddings and new arrivals and again nothing for us.

What happens when our anxiety and depression is recognized and being treated but the medications and therapy is no longer working? Or is at a plateau? For our doctors, friends, and family it’s hard to talk about because they don’t know what to do about it either. It’s a scary place to be because there are some things in life that feel completely unfixable and when you’ve spent ten to fifteen years talking it out or taking anti-depressants or doing group therapy sessions – what now?

As a generation of people who were diagnosed with depression and anxiety through suicidal thoughts, we have to start talking about how we are going to go through life once the meds stop working and the talk therapy is no longer helping. And of course, how we will pay for this is a whole other issue.

I know the pain of being consumed with thoughts of suicide in the middle of the night.

Are you having long-term thoughts of suicide? Have you experienced such a dark time and come through to brighter days?

Despite the struggle and the pain, you matter. You are important. Significant.

When thoughts of despair plague, remember that the Lord is with you even in this.

Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there (Psalm 7-8).

When you are in the depths of depression, the last thing you feel like doing is connecting. But I encourage you to attend a Bible-believing church. Just as you are. Even on your dark days. You don’t have to have your life together before you can come. When my friend Barbara lost her two teenagers in a car wreck, she plunged into deep and extended depression.

“How did you survive that?” I asked.

“I kept going to church,” she said. “No matter what, go to church.”

Why? Because the music and sermons remind you that Jesus Christ knows how you feel. In the Bible are stories of others who knew depression including Jonah, Job, Paul and Barnabas knew depression. People in the church have experienced dark nights of the soul.

While there may not be a quick solution for you, church is where you receive prayer, and connect and belong. And it is where you are needed. God comforts us so we can comfort others. There will be a time when you can be the person who says to another, “I understand how you feel.”

Click here to see a letter from someone who understands your despair: Dear Friend, at GodTest.com, and learn about (or be reminded of) how to find a relationship with Jesus Christ to comfort you in your trials.

You have searched me, Lord,
and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue
you, Lord, know it completely.
You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts, God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.

Psalm 139:1-18 (NIV Bible, from BibleGateway.com)

 Enjoy this beautiful rendition of Amazing Grace:

FAITH––the Suicide Vaccine (Suicide Prevention)

A pharmacist suggests a different kind of ‘vaccine’ for suicide prevention.

By Karen O’Connor:

Image: Sura Nualpradid / FreeDigitalPhotos.net

Lisa Hamil, Pharm. D., a registered pharmacist in the State of California, claims that ‘faith is the suicide vaccine’ and she highly recommends it for those who are contemplating taking their own lives.

“Why would anyone want to commit suicide?” she asks, when faith in God can lead one out of depression and the “torments of life’s weariness, guilt, anger, pride, lack of forgiveness, hopelessness, disappointment, betrayal, and the feeling of being unloved?”

Hamil, when working behind the pharmacy counter, speaks with hundreds of people each month who bring in prescriptions for pain-killers, anti-depressant medications and other drugs. She claims most people are looking for relief that medicine cannot address long-term.

“These medications come with a written educational guide that specifically warns patients: ‘Antidepressant medicines may increase suicidal thoughts or actions . . .’  These guides as well as health care providers recommend that patients learn effective coping skills to complement the chemical intervention of antidepressant drugs.” There is no such ‘fix’ for the true source of the problem—separation from the Spirit of God.

“One’s thoughts,” says Hamil, “determine one’s life, mood, and actions. There is no medication available that can reliably change our thoughts or our actions. We must take charge and choose to discipline our thought life. Drugs may help during that thought transition process, but patients must move forward with a clear goal in mind.”

The Bible offers guidance too.

“Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things” (Philippians 4:8).

“Building their faith is the choice depressed patients must make in order to effectively prevent the ultimate dismay that leads to suicide,” says Hamil. “Faith is the suicide vaccine and support is available through other believers, pastors, and inspirational readings.”

Hamil suggests these important steps to take:

1) Choosing to be thankful versus complaining

2) Forgiving yourself and others who have hurt or betrayed you

3) Serving and helping others

4) Focusing on the perfection of God’s love and his provision.

Enjoy this inspiring video with Joyce Meyer speaking on the power of unleashing faith.

Not sure how to find faith? One place to start is http://www.GodTest.com. There you will find a questionnaire that will walk you through common questions about the Christian faith, as well as heartfelt letters about dealing with serious struggles in life.