God Help Me Handle My Loved One’s Estate

By Dianne E. Butts:

 If as executor you must handle your loved one’s estate while you are grieving, you may cry out: “God help me!”


After the death of a loved one some people don’t want to think about business at all. Other people want to only think about business so they can get lost in it!

As much as you may not want to face it, you may be thinking “God help me! I don’t want to handle my loved one’s estate.”

I mention this because it might be helpful to know up front that this “business” may have to be tended to.

In my list of “10 Things I’ve Learned About Grief” (excerpted from my first book, Dear America), the seventh thing I’ve learned about grief is this:

Someone, maybe you, will need to take care of the deceased person’s estate, meaning their property, bills, and assets. It helps to know up front that this process takes a long time, often at least a year. Ask for help, especially with all that legal stuff.

In the year 2000, my father-in-law died in April and my mother-in-law followed in December. We then learned my husband, the oldest of three sons, had been made the executor of their estate. We were living in a small town at the time and my husband hired a small town attorney to help him execute their will. This attorney made things immensely easier and his fee was not all that much.

There were legal hoops to jump through, but having someone knowledgeable eased that stress. If you are the one who needs to take care of your loved one’s personal belongings or estate, you may find thoughts of suicide edge in to your thinking because you’d rather die than have to deal with this. Ask for help. Whether friends or family can help you, or hiring a perfect stranger is the way to go, there are people who can help you walk through this difficult task.

In my first book, Dear America, I told my story of losing my father then my brother when I was a teenager. Because my parents were divorced, tending to my father’s estate was a challenge.

During the same few years I also lost two grandparents and a friend at school. I wrote Dear America after September 11th, 2001, hoping that sharing my story would help someone get through grief. You can learn more about Dear America here.

If you’re thinking, “God help me! I don’t want to take care of my loved one’s estate,” then you’re asking the right Person! God is willing to help you!

Lost a Loved One? A Grief Lesson on ‘Firsts’

This continues Dianne’s 10 Things I’ve Learned About Grief. Here she discusses the first year of ‘firsts’, as that can tempt some to think about suicide.

By Dianne E. Butts:


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In 1850 Alfred Lord Tennyson, in his poem In Memoriam:27, wrote, “ ‘Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.” But if you’ve lost a loved one, it may not feel that way, but instead may tempt you to think about suicide.

The first year after the death of a loved one is filled with many “firsts.” In my list of “10 Things I’ve Learned About Grief” (excerpted from my first book, Dear America), the sixth thing I’ve learned about grief is this:

 #6: During the first year, you will experience a lot of “firsts”—your first anniversary, first birthday, first Christmas, and other first holidays without your loved one. Other firsts may include the first time you go to the movies without your loved one, plan a trip by yourself, or dine solo. And, of course, there will come the first anniversary of your loved one’s death.

It’s hard for anyone to get through all these for the first time. And getting through them the first time does not take away all the pain or depression. You may feel grief on those anniversaries for many years to come.

I learned some people experience “anniversary grief”: feelings of sadness, depression, anxiety, or other emotions around the anniversary of the death. These may even be subconscious, as a feeling of sadness, anxiety, anger, or other emotion that you just can’t figure out why it is hovering over you.

For years I felt a vague sense of dread, like something bad was about to happen, around my birthday. I could not shake the feeling and did not understand it. I didn’t connect it with my brother’s death until a friend of mine explained “anniversary grief” to me. It was only two days after my 18th birthday that my brother was killed by a drunk driver. I’d had other traumatic events happen near my birthday when a younger teenager also, including when my parents announced their divorce and yet another year when my father was diagnosed with cancer and had major surgery.

While I hadn’t connected the dots, my subconscious had, and it left me with that feeling something dreadful was about to happen. You may experience a different feeling. These feelings can cause us to think about suicide.

When such an anniversary is approaching:

  • Try to anticipate times that will be difficult, like holidays.
  • Make plans to do something special.
  • Preferably do your special plans with friends, family, or other people around.
  • Holidays or personal anniversaries are no time to be alone.

Pastor Charles Stanley wrote a beautiful letter to grieving people on the tenth anniversary of September 11th:

We experience injustices at the hand of others who cause us overwhelming suffering. The pain gnaws at us and we wonder, Why God? Why did You allow these things to happen? Is there any hope left?

“Are you experiencing this kind of grief today? Has your world come crashing down due to another’s hurtful actions? Have you lost someone or something that is very precious to you? If so, I want to remind you that God is still on His throne…and He loves you unconditionally.”

You can read the rest of Pastor Charles Stanley’s letter here.

Seek out the comfort of friends and family. They love you and they need you, too. So don’t let the first year of firsts after the death of a loved one tempt you to think about suicide.

When you feel sad or are thinking about suicide, why not instead begin to think about things you are thankful for? God, also, has experienced pain and loss and He knows how it feels. Listen to this song with lots to thank God for: “I’ll Say Thanks” by God City: